Freedom Vs Bondage

Sometimes I feel like such a failure. Wow! What a great way to start a blog piece, but it's true. It seems like I mess up all the time. I make a vow to never saying anything bad about anybody and the very next day I fail. I pray that I'll be a good mom today and then totally yell at my kids for something so small. It just seems like the harder I try, the worse I do.

I am in my bible and praying more than I ever have. I have been praying that I would learn more of who God is. As He is revealing Himself to me more and more, the more insignificant and unworthy I feel. He is so Holy and I am totally not. He is Righteous and I fail all the time. He is Perfect and that is a word that describes no one.

Today, as I was praying God said something to me that was just profound, awesome, amazing...I just couldn't settle on one word. He doesn't reveal Himself to us to hold us in bondage. He does not show us His Holiness to show us how much we fall short. He doesn't reveal His Perfectness to show us all of our faults. He doesn't show us His righteousness so we can see clearly just how far off we are. No. He reveals Himself to us so we can live in Freedom! Freedom in His love for us. Freedom from trying to be Holy on our own. Freedom from a worldly Righteousness that is unattainable.

God Loves us! He does not have a great log book in the sky keeping track of every single mistake we make, every time we fall short. He is drawing us to Himself. He is drawing us away from a life of sin and into his perfect presence. Are we going to mess up? Absolutely. We are human after all and there is not one of us that is perfect. But in those moments we can turn to God in Freedom, knowing that He loves us unconditionally. That He will use that mistake to make us a little more like Him. To tweak and fine tune us just a little bit more. With no sighs and grumbles of how we messed up again. But just with arms of Grace drawing us to His side.