A Look Back

I've been in a little bit of a rut lately.  Nothing huge, but still a rut.  I've been sick.  Ugh!  I hate being sick!  It messes up my schedule and I am a person that functions best with a schedule.  I also have just been sleeping, a ton!  Because of this, I haven't really been spending time with God like I want to.  I knew that if I read my bible, I would just be going through the motions.  I wouldn't really being getting anything out of it.  I just felt that bad!

It's so easy during a short phase like this to lose sight of where you're at.  It gives Satan the opportunity to tell lies that can be easy to believe.  Lies like "you never hear from God" "God doesn't speak to you like He does to others" and so many more.  I was feeding into these lies.  Kinda getting really down at where I am in my walk.

This morning I am finally feeling better.  Not great, but definitely where I know I can read my bible, pray and actually be able to focus on what God has to say to me.  After I was done praying, I just felt the urge to read back through some of my journal.  Wow!  I was in such awe of all God has done over the past six months.  Prayers that I had started praying in December & January are being answered right now!  I can see where God has changed me in answer to other prayers I had prayed.  And I was reminded of work God is still doing in other areas.

What an amazing morning.  For God to say I am speaking to you, see, here's proof.  You don't have to believe the lies of the enemy.

You're not going to "feel" God all the time.  That doesn't mean He's not there.  It doesn't mean that He's not still working.  So, take a look back.  See what God has done.  Call Satan out on his lies.  I am so thankful for this blog and my personal journal where I can record what God is saying and doing in me.  Written proof of His love for me and His work in me.