Mixed Emotions

For so long I've just been anxious to get to Indiana. It seemed like for such a long time we were in the process to get there that it wasn't really real. We had to finish remodeling our basement, then we had to wait for our house to sell. Once it finally did sell, we had an unusually long wait to close so we had to wait to look for a house and then still had 6 weeks until closing after we had an accepted contract. It just seems like we've been in the process for a really long time. Well, I guess it has been over a year, so that is a long time. As of today, we close on both houses two weeks from tomorrow and move to Indiana just two days after that. What's that? Like 16 days! I can hardly believe it's that close!

During The Process, as I'm terming it, all my focus was on Indiana, what we're missing over there. We've missed a lot of the start-up meetings, several sneak peaks and really a lot of the foundation building of SCC. It's been hard to miss all of that. I'm also super-excited to live near my family. We probably talk about moving near Autie Kim every day! Every once in awhile I would think about what we're leaving, but it really wasn't a main focus. I knew it would be hard, but I figured I would be so excited to finally be getting to Indiana that it wouldn't be that big of a deal. Man was I wrong. Leaving things here is a huge deal! Church is especially hard. We've been at Bridgeway for 6 1/2 years now. We love it there. We have grown so much since being there. It's also where we met our dearest friends here, our lifegroup. These couples have been integrated into our lives for the past 3 years or so. We have gone through so much with them and love them all dearly.

It's hard to live in this moment. We're so excited to finally being getting to Indiana. We're also extremely saddened to be saying goodbye to everything here. One thing Pastor Dale said to me on Sunday was that it was ok to grieve. It's ok to be sad. Just because we have this amazing call of God on our life doesn't mean that there are not going to be sad moments.

So, I'm trying to prepare myself for the next two weeks. I'm sure I'm going to be a mess at church both Sundays. Doug and Austin have threatened to sit in the back row far away from me. I think I'll pack lots of tissue and cherish the moment. I know I'm going to cry, but that's ok. I am leaving some of my closest friends. The good news is, is that once I say goodbye here, I'll be saying hello to some very dear friends in Indiana in addition to my mom and sister! The other good news is that we are not terribly far away, so I am expecting lots of visits from our friends from here!

Next step, packing....Ugh!